Harsh Cravings

Harsh Cravings is a diary style memoir influenced by Mary MacLane's I Await the Devil's Coming and confessional literature. Written over the course of ninety days, it is a first-person reflection of what it is to navigate a queer life, marriage and memories in New York City. Taking place during the summer and fall months of 2020, it is an unfiltered look into the life of its author and a commentary on the events and people who surround him.

"With Harsh Cravings Jason Haaf beautifully delivers a poignant piece of work capturing the many moods and fluctuations of a queer writer living in New York City in 2020, amidst the burgeoning Covid-19 pandemic. At once intimate and revealing, Haaf works his magic to impart not only his own internal and interpersonal experiences but also to more broadly comment on the rupturing and evolving socio-political landscape. A real slice of life seen through the eyes of a man who allows himself to express his vulnerability and in so doing provides the reader with a resonance, strength and beauty that is as moving as it is difficult to impart."

— Dr Vanessa Sinclair, author of Scansion in Psychoanalysis and Art: The Cut in Creation

“In the queer tradition of over-sharing, Harsh Cravings is a raw, resonant, and sexually explicit exploration of self. Jason Haaf’s pandemic journal reverberates with erotic tension while navigating the interior spaces of mid-life’s onslaught of maturity and reflexivity. Highly enjoyable and insightful, the book takes the reader on a journey back to some of the most challenging days of 2020 as a means of finding pathways forward in a tumultuous world.”

— Ryan A. White, filmmaker Raw! Uncut! Video!

  • Published by Polari Press

  • Dimensions are: 129x198mm (5.08 x 7.80 in.)

  • 198 pages, Paperback